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Aphrodite

 

A pelican rocks on the water,

a ghostly glimmer in the moonlight.

A young woman pauses at the water?s edge,

seafoam lapping gently against her ankles.

She reaches for a shell shining in the sand;

her touch caresses the swirling water.

Scallops of rippling light

shimmer and radiate

from her long and lean dancer?s body

across the sea illuminating the moon itself.

A goddess glows in the waves.

 

 

Susan Caspers

DATA

Teacher as Writer Workshop

Summer 2002

 

Mother-In-Law

 

Across the kitchen table,

we talk about the weather,

about the children,

the cousins and the families.

 

I call you ?Mom,?

but the word is borrowed,

awkward in my mouth.

 

We skate through conversations

about appropriate topics,

circling the uncomfortable fissures

and crevices of family ice.

 

Borrowed money peers through the ice,

its green face dimly taunting us.

We thought we could be business-like.

 

But now your gifts are withdrawn

and our anniversary is forgotten.

You cried when I married your son.

I still don?t believe they were tears of joy.

 

So I remain politely

behind the fortressed walls I?ve raised,

believing that I won?t feel your barbs.

They deflect off my solid sides until

one hits your son and he turns to me in pain.

As he lances his swollen wound for relief,

the poison leaks onto me

varnishing my hardened walls and

thickening my polite polyurethane veneer.

 

Too many angry feelings unvoiced,

Too many hurts unhealed.

Because there was no war,

there isn?t any peace.

 

We face each other across the formica table,

talking about the weather,

polished and polite.

 

 

Susan Caspers

DATA

2003 ,1996

 

 

Reflections on an Empty House

 

My children have flown today

to friends? houses and baseball games.

They are flexing their wings, practicing

leaving and finding their way home.

Learning to be uncaged.

 

Have I given my children wings?

I want them back.

In the unending labor of birth, flapping eager wings gouge and scratch.

The vibrant softness of feathers is not always enough.

The wonder of the birth canal is flexibility:

when stretched, it gives.

But sometimes it only gives in tears.

 

Maybe we?re all waterfowl:  ocean-going birds

forever creating our own salt seas.

I listen to the uncaged birds in my yard.

They don?t always sing.

Sometimes they cry.

 

 

                                   

                                               

Susan Caspers

DATA

2003, 1996